About CHAOS ANd this (wo)mans first Disobedience
Welcome to my little crypt tucked somewhere in the darker corners of the internet.
When I began building this website, I wanted something different from the endless doom scroll of modern self-promotion. Consider this my little record insert. I think it’s important to learn something about the soul behind the maker. Otherwise you might as well assume it’s AI.
Chaos & Hell was never meant to be a click-to-purchase web experience. Each piece begins as a drawn-out poetic or darkly romantic idea that floats around in my mind until I eventually shape the metal into whatever those thoughts become.
I’m here for my fellow nerds who love the lore — the people who actually enjoy the story behind the object.
Before my life truly began, I found a thriving scene of punks and metalheads when I was sixteen. This was before social media, when you actually had to go out into the world to find your people. I started meeting mine at Welfare Records in Haverhill, Massachusetts. It’s still there.
It was my first glimpse of something that felt right.
Aggressive music. LOUD ideas.
A group of people who looked like they had nowhere else to be except exactly there.
I became obsessed. I wanted to learn everything — the bands, the lore, the influences, the history behind it all.
One of my core memories is sitting in a grocery store parking lot listening to Iron Maiden while drinking beer that had been stashed in Jordans trunk while Grinrod made fun of my lack of metal knowledge.
They were assholes.. but I loved them.
And I was lucky to have found them. Some of them are still in my life today 20+ years later. Those weird little moments shaped who I became.
My past rings through in every piece of jewelry I make. Everything I create is something I wish I had back then but I was a broke teenager.
Ideally, some of the pieces I make become the kind of thing you’d grab along with your favorite shirt and your pet if your house was burning down.
Or the biggest compliment I ever hear:
“I never take this piece off.”
We live in a vain world, and how you look tells people who you are. Just think about being in the most stuck up place but you see a Darkthrone shirt walk in, you immediately can exhale a bit. Many of us spend our days dressed for work while King Diamond sings ballads in our heads and we feel completely disconnected from ourselves.
Chaos & Hell exists for that disconnect.
Maybe you can’t wear your Motörhead shirt to work.. but you can probably get away with a necklace.
Every piece I’ve ever made carries echoes of the bands and the people who shaped me.
Putting all of this together originally became Häxan Hollow — which was supposed to be a temporary name. It started as an inside joke that I should just name my jewelry brand Witch Vag.
Ironically, that eventually birthed Chaos & Hell.
Chaos & Hell is my Decibel plastered wall on the internet where my passions meet - HEAVY METAL, horror, occult lore, underground cultures and the assholes who I love dearly that inhabit these realms with me. .
Chaos and Hell is my ode to my heavy metal roots.
For were it not for the first disobedient thing I did to find it I’d probably just be a pretty corpse.